Monday, January 14, 2008
The Epiphany
It all started last week as I began to talk to hub about the possibility of going to Tucson to see my Aunt and do the Bingham Oro Valley half marathon race there in March. We started talking about me getting ready to do a half that quickly. I think I could do it, in fact I know I could (I'm planning to do 9 on the 9th of February), but again, it would be training to "make it through" a race, probably not much more. It takes a lot of time and energy not just during but after I run. I have a lot of recovery on the feet and general body as the miles escalate and try to be "okay" but it usually takes somewhat of a toll. And it is even hard for me to cross train because my feet need rest in between running days. Hub is totally supportive of me going if that is what I want to do but also starts to have one of those heart to hearts.....
Do I just want to be a runner or is it the fitness/health/weight benefits of running that I really want? Is it really doing for me what I need it to do? Well, I want to be a runner because it feels cool, sounds cool, is challenging and rewarding, and does a lot for my head, BUT, all of this is because I want to get back to skinny me, you know, RunnerBody. My mom has type 2 diabetes so I have plenty of non-vain reasons -- real risks -- to be as lean as possible. And after the biggest, runningest year of my life, with lots of running milestones, I realize, it just isn't cutting it. In fact I am heavier than I started the year. If I were making gradual progress, the story might be different, but UP in weight?
Foot Guy and PT Guy both said, I might just be a 3 day a week runner with this body.... It's pretty hard to make fitness or running gains or poundage losses if that is ALL you are doing.
We go on to talk about the weight we both need to lose. We are always trying off and on, but we cheat a lot. And really, that just doesn't work for me. I can eat what I want if I don't mind being 160 but not if I want to be under 150. I used to weigh 150 for high school and college, but slowly made my way to 160. I got serious and dieted and worked out like crazy getting to 130. It was difficult to maintain and I went up and down a couple times. I think I was about 140 when we got married but then came kids. I seem to settle in the 160's unless I work pretty hard. I did manage to get back to 146 a couple of years ago for a trip to Hawaii and stayed around 150 for quite awhile, so it isn't like my post kids chances of being less are just gone, maybe just a little harder to accomplish now.
Anyway, after all this running, I am back to 160. I blamed it on the non-stop eating all over Italy, but really it has been an on-going thing. I take a challenge or be good for a few days and get to 156 or so, but then I'm off the wagon and go right back up. Every time I go back up, some of the clothes fit, I think I am dressing "smart" and delude myself that I really don't look "THAT bad." Then something happens and I realize, I really do look THAT bad.
And, I can't deny the numbers any longer. The running has not gotten me to RunnerBody. I do believe I have built muscle, hell, not everyone does a 1 minute plank, but I've still got a long way to go on the core and strengthening and definitely on the weight. I'll never forget a quote from an article I read about getting six pack abs. Anyone can have them, but to show them off you've got to be lean as well. They can't be covered in a layer of chub.
I think it is time to de-chub....
Hub tells me the gym is having a fitness and weight loss challenge and he is willing to do it with me. We decide to do it and find out more details as we investigate. The Meredith Publishing Corp, which is responsible for countless magazines and books and happens to be located in lovely Des Moines, is doing research for a fitness and weight loss book they want to put out later this year. The challenge is sponsered by them and involves diet and fitness regimens you can use or not, weigh in and measurements, before and after pics (OMG!!) and prize money to the winners -- all through our gym.
We did our before and after pics, front and back, to take to the weigh in. I. was. mortified. How long have I been miss fun-loving with the larger than a house back-side? OMG, I need action. NOW. Seriously. This is so bad. I have been carrying the picture around in a folder in case I try to delude myself again. (and it does not resemble the lady with the branch having an epiphany, it is nearly as scary as fun-loving cartoon lady.) My hub asked if I was going to post the picture. It is so bad, I seriously can't fathom it unless there is an absolutely amazing RunnerBody after to go next to it.
So, I am going to try running 3 times per week, but with a lot of cardio cross training and lots of weight training. And, major lifestyle changes with the intake. Major. It won't be fun, but apparently I've already had more than my share.
I did cardio (35 min) + weights on Tuesday and Wednesday.
Ran on Thursday.
Friday off.
Saturday weights and toning.
Sunday cardio (40 min) + weights. (I did a 70 second plank!! The side ones still kill me though.)
Wish me luck. My challenge start was 161 and I weighed 156 on that scale on Sunday. If I can get some weight off and keep it off, then maybe I can handle some race preparation a little better.Good luck, sounds like you're off to a great start!
I have been a runner on and off for a couple of years now, but only got back into it seriously last year. Together with a boot camp class, I am now working out 5 or 6 days each week, have lost 10 pounds, and 12 inches since last October. Running alone was not taking any pounds off for me either - cross training and lifting is a must.
Good luck and don't give up!
I applaud you for taking the before photo...never would have been able to do it. I agree, would like to work off the chub to see some abs, so I have just restarted Nutrionathon...I guess this was the week for new goals! Here's to you!
You can do it, because you ROCK MY FACE OFF!
Even then I'm not sure I'll want to post the before of my problem area...
Best luck--I looking forward to hearing more about it!
Cranky
I was thinking I need core strength because ... shhh...my back hurts but I'm in denial.
It's great hubby is on board with the program. Please keep us updated. Sounds like you've got the motivation.
I feel like I've met my twin. Everything you wrote I've said out loud and to myself. The challenge is a great idea. Good luck to you - I'll be following closely!
We should have a bet going. lose 10 pounds by March 14th or post a picture of yourself on your blog in a bikini or speedo. Nevermind, that's a crazy ideal.
Good luck with the weight loss challenge.
I always find your blog inspiring and this time was no different. I guess every one of us has to look at that most basic question about why we run... to be a runner or for exercise. Along with that is the fact that even if we had all the time in the world and all the motivation, running is hard on our bodies and we need to have time to recover.
Well, here is my answer to the whole question of what you should do.. and I know you weren't asking and already made a decision. You have to do what is right for Nancy Bell and not worry about anyone else. Not foot guy, not PT guy, and not even your husband. This is just too important.
I've seen enough pictures to know that you look great. You've worked through injuries and sickness to continue to train and be a runner. You also have to live a little and that trip to Italy must have been amazing.
I'll just shut up now...because I know you'll do great in '08:-)
Way to Go Nancy... I am on a major mission to get lean & mean for my 100's don't want to carry any extra if I can help it :-)
Cardio Cardio Cardio :-)
You are going to do great with this challenge. What an awesome challenge to have, a real motivator. If you can do a 70 sec. plank I would say you are on your way. OUCH!
I am going through the same things right now, running 3 days a week mixed with st and extra cardio. I hope it works. I have such a long way to go. The first 55 lbs. I was gung ho now I find myself indulging when I should just step away form the food. Reading your commitment through this journey will keep me motivated. I am on your side..Go Nancy Go!
Pictures can be one of the best tools in keepingit real. This is a snap shot of what others see all the time. just the other night I was looking at vacation photos from past year and realized I was totally fat in 2005. i marched up stairs and put that ugly bathing suite that I have continued to wear straight in the trash. UNREAL!!
I say you should run and stay fits for both reason... it's cool and he is way better for your health.
You can do this and it will make a difference with your running!! you already know that. HM here you come.
Best of luck to your hubby as well.
Good luck to you and your weight loss/toning up endeavors. I'm sure you'll do great and think of how much easier it will be to carry your slim self across a finish line when you're done!
I did a 30-second plank at the gym this morning and thought I was going to die. I can't believe 70! I've found that I actually like side planks ... one elbow on the mat and the other hand reaching up in the air ... better for some reason. No idea why, because you'd think they'd be harder. The regular ones kill me, though.
I think you should definitely do a half marathon in March! I'd love to read about your progress and your training ... I'm also training for a half in mid-March, the Shamrock in Virginia Beach. I'm blogging about my experiences here: http://
pokedandprodded.health.com/poked_prodded/
amandamacmillan.html.
I'll definitely check back and keep reading! Good luck!
When I turned 30, I was weighing in at 168 and I didn't even realize how big I was. Within the next year, I completely transformed my life. I dropped down to 132, but after marathon training, I was back at 146. That's what I'm working at getting off now (I'm about half way there).
By the way, I'm thinking of posting before and after BATHING SUIT pics - but they are embarassing. What are your thoughts on that?????
GOOD LUCK NANCY. We're all here for ya!
I am rooting for you!! :-)
Does this mean when I show up in Des Moines you're going to be cooking a healthy meal for dinner?
remember, muscle weighs more than fat and how your clothes fit is a better guage than the scale.
you can do it!
(does this mean you're coming to Tucson in March?)
I wanted to ask you if you currently lift weights, or have considered lifting weights or even doing body-weight circuit training. It is, hands down, an absolutely effective way to shed fat. I know that goes counter to everything that we've been told for so long, and I know women think that they will "bulk up" (you won't), but it really does bring results.
Anyway, however you choose to go about it, your determination and stick-with-it-ness will get you where you want to go. Happy blogging, hope you don't mind if I subscribe!
Cheers,
Heidi
Good to have a goal.. but also to know that there is good health in the doing of it all.
Studies show, that it is healthier to be fit and fat, than thin an unfit. You can lose weight through exercise, but you need to emphasize intensity over duration. I agree that the FIRST plan might be ideal for you, since it has 3 days of running and 2 or 3 days of non-weight bearing cross-training. I'll let you know if I lose any weight. I swear I'll just be giving you information, not bragging ;) Good luck with the plan. I'll try to get caught up on your blog soon!
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